Krásny obal, v ktorom sa skrýva bolesť. Umelkyňa vytvára úžasné fotografie, ktorými bojuje s démonmi vo vlastnom tele

Väčšina z nás sa rada pozrie do súkromia ostatných. Keď ideme večer po ulici, aspoň očkom nahliadneme do cudzieho bytu, v ktorom sa svieti. 26-ročnú fotografku Amy Spanos odjakživa fascinovali ľudia, ich osudy a životy. Svojím objektívom zachytáva predovšetkým ženy, ktorých krása vám vyrazí dych. Pod krásnym obalom sa však nachádza kvantum bolesti. Amy sa fotografovať  naučila sama, pričom všetkým ukázala, že má naozajstný talent. 

Táto fotografka z Londýna má pred sebou skvelú budúcnosť. Ako sama tvrdí, skrz fotografie bojuje proti poruche osobnosti, s ktorou musí dennodenne bojovať. A určite to nie je maličkosť. „Momentálne som zamilovaná do rôznych ľudí. Jedinou tragédiou je, že poriadne ani nevedia, ako sa volám. Kvôli tomu strácam väčšinu času bezduchým snívaním o neznámych ľuďoch. Predstavujem si, aké by to bolo, a všetko sa tak veľmi zamotá, že sa to nikdy nepretaví do skutočnosti. V tom je tá druhá tragédia,“ tvrdí mladá umelkyňa. Samotný proces fotografovania sa však pre ňu stal terapiou, ktorá jej pomôže sa v sebe vyznať. My jej držíme palce, aby sa jej to podarilo.

Keď ťažké cesty vedú k tým najkrajším zákutiam

Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations. . This was a self portrait I took back in June. I planned the photo out and it didn’t turn out at all how I had planned at all – the sun hit at the wrong time, the smoke blowed the wrong way and I ended up using a lighting practice out take and about 30 other photos for the photo – but somehow I liked it better, and I felt like that was a perfect metaphor for my life at the time. Sometimes when I’m sad or unsure about the future I like to look back at the self portraits I have taken through rough patches and remember all the good that came from those times. I’m so thankful to have such a creative passion that I can learn and grow through.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Dec 7, 2017 at 1:50pm PST

Autoportrét umelkyne, ktorý ukazuje, akou komplikovanou životnou etapou práve prechádzala. Pri fotografovaní všetko hralo v jej neprospech, no ona i z toho dokázala vyťažiť maximum.

Ľudia sú ako mraky. Sú nádherní, najmä vtedy, keď ich nevidíte

It’s been a stressful week. I’m kind of tired with seeing my life spoken about online, some things in life should be private. There’s something beautiful about keeping certain aspects of your life hidden. Maybe people and clouds are beautiful because you can’t see everything. Social media is a weird place where people often share too much to complete strangers. It may have been your story to share, but it was my story to keep. There’s so much I could say but nah.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Dec 21, 2017 at 5:16pm PST

Touto fotografiou umelkyňa upozorňuje na to, aby sme všetko nevešali na sieť. Aj v dnešnej „online“ dobe je nutnosť zachovania súkromia.

Aj takto môže vyzerať to, čo sa vám deje v hlave

It’s kind of hard with you not around.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Dec 20, 2017 at 10:58am PST

Ak budete mať na pamäti svoju smrť, môžete urobiť tie najdôležitejšie voľby v svojom živote

‘Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Almost everything–all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure–these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart. No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it, and that is how it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new.’ – Steve Jobs

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Všetci sa bojíme smrti. Aj samotná autorka. Uvedomuje si však, aké dôležité je žiť autentický život. Nikto iný ho neodžije za nás. Avšak aj strach zo smrti nás môže posunúť dopredu.

Užívajte si svoj život. Nechoďte po koľajniciach tých ostatných

I’m so sad the past week is over, it has probably been the most amazing experience of my life, I haven’t stopped smiling and laughing the whole time. Life is a beautiful lesson and I now know – It’s totally okay to break down and cry until your eyes are puffy, but afterwards you just gotta pick yourself up and deal with it. Go be yourself, go find yourself, go laugh, and have a nice burger. Go laugh for a whole afternoon and forget about your work. Turn your phone off for the whole day and not think about who is or isn’t texting you. Tell the people that you love that you love them, call them, don’t text. You’re full grown but sometimes it’s fun to just be goofy. Go outside and pick flowers, make a crown, put them in a vase or take pictures of them. Never be shy to take a photo, never be afraid to ask strangers to take your photo, even if you’re alone. Please please please travel. Travel when you can and travel by yourself or with people you love. Surround yourself with people that feel like sunshine, discard the ones that don't. Meet strangers at festivals and make them friends, lovers, companions. Kiss a handsome stranger during a beautiful sandstorm. Do not let anyone tell you how you should live your sexual life. It’s your business, not your parents, not your friends, nobody’s but yours. Never apologize for something you’re not sorry for, and if you do don’t be sorry that you did. Fall in love, fall out of love, if it takes you years to get over it be proud of that, if it takes you weeks be proud of that. Do what makes you happy, not what is expected of you. Be proud of who you are and what you’ve accomplished, be excited for the great things that are to come. Most importantly – be happy, please be happy.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Sep 5, 2017 at 6:55pm PDT

Smejte sa, cestuje, radujte sa z každého života. Len nedovoľte, aby vám ostatní kecali do toho, ako máte žiť svoj život. To nám radí úspešná fotografka.

Všetci s niečím bojujeme. Tu je dôkaz

Self destructive #mentalhealthawareness Everyone has a story, everyone has a battle, everything has consequences, always stay kind and compassionate 🖤

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Oct 10, 2017 at 11:39am PDT

V skutočnosti nemáme čo stratiť

“Nothing is infinite, not even loss. You are made of the sea and the stars, and one day you are going to find yourself again.” — F. Butler . People always say that it hurts at night when screaming into your pillow at 3am. But sometimes it’s 9am on a tuesday morning and you’re standing in the kitchen waiting for the toast to pop up and the smell of dusty sunlight and coffee makes you miss him so much and you don’t know what to do with your hands. The hardest lesson you will ever learn will be to love yourself. But you can do it. There will always be days when you hate yourself, days when you wish you had never been born. But darling you are beautiful. I know it’s hard to love yourself, but sometimes it’s okay to be a little selfish with your love. When you begin to feel worthless, remember that the stars died for you. You are made of elements that are thousands of years old, elements that make up every atom of your being. Some days will be beautiful. Live for those days. Live for the days when the sun shines on your soul and the smile on your face isn’t forced. Live for the days when you don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks because your scars are a part of your story and you don’t need someone else’s approval to wear them with pride. Live for the life you always wanted but were too scared to pursue. Live for you. Live for me. Live for every person who has ever loved you, for the people who have come before you so that you may be here today. Live for the fire that burns in your soul, that tells you: keep going, you’re almost there. Because when Rome burned down the emperor didn’t run away, he stayed and he sang for his people. Stay. Sing for your people. Sing for us.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Oct 24, 2017 at 7:48pm PDT

Najťažšia úloha je naučiť sa milovať samých seba. Je to výzva, ktorú by mal zvládnuť každý z nás.

Diabol verzus anjel. Záleží len na nás, koho budeme počúvať

Bad bunny @xolucyvictoria 🐰

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Oct 19, 2017 at 9:11am PDT

Svetlo si vždy nájde cestu von

Light will find you 💡 @enchantressity @collectifclothing

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Sep 4, 2017 at 11:10pm PDT

Svet chaosu podľa Amy

Chaos theory.

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Niektoré fotografie doslova vyrážajú dych

Always been a sucker for a wild boy.

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Každý autoportrét autorky má silnú výpovednú hodnotu

It seemed like months before those bruises faded. I finally read all the messages you sent me over the past 2 years. You brought up ‘old times’ as if those old times weren’t covered in bruises and hate. I had that familiar feeling in my gut that I used to get with you, telling me to trust you again, that maybe this time you would’t hurt me as badly. You talked about the songs we played together, convincing me that maybe old times weren’t as bad as I once imagined.I remember the old times. I remember the time you cracked 2 of my ribs against the bathroom wall. I remember the lies I would tell to stop people asking about the scratches over my face, I remember the stairs and how far I fell before I hit solid ground, I remember the times you put your hands on my throat. I remember the first time your closed fist cracked across my face and I knew I was stuck. I remember the times you would kiss me tenderly in the mornings, placing your lips on every bruise you had painted on my body the night before.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Aug 14, 2017 at 12:40pm PDT

Na vlastnej koži zažila fyzické násilie, a vie, že modriny sa síce zahoja, no jazvy na psychike len tak ľahko nevymaže žiaden čas.

Najviac nás dokážu zraniť tie najlepšie veci

I know right now you feel alone, and all the good things they hurt the most 🌪💨 #kygofridays💃

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Aug 4, 2017 at 10:17am PDT

Hlavné je udržať si nadhľad

Blue skies.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Aug 1, 2017 at 10:50am PDT

Voda zmyje všetko

I'm slowly drifting away, wave after wave

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Jul 29, 2017 at 1:05pm PDT

Krása má rôzne podoby

🌪 @bethanylilyapril

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on May 25, 2017 at 8:12am PDT

Výhľad, ktorý rozhodne zaujme

Good morning world ⛅️ @missdeadlyred

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on May 9, 2017 at 9:10pm PDT

Myslí si, že nie je kreatívna, avšak jej fotografie dokazujú presný opak

'Take a look at your heart and your soul, is this really it? Is it all that you are?'

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Mar 19, 2017 at 6:00am PDT

Aj takto vyzerá fantázia

Undefeated.

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Feb 25, 2017 at 5:34am PST

Keď prestaneme hľadať strašidlá pod posteľou, zistíme, že v skutočnosti sa nachádzajú v nás

'We stopped looking for monsters under our bed when we realized that they were inside us.'

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Nov 17, 2016 at 10:21am PST

Na čo sa to všetci hráme?

'Go sell your soul and keep your shell.'

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Nov 13, 2016 at 1:12am PST

Keď tie tmavé dni sú daňou za tie svetlé

Darker days – I'm having one of those mornings when you wake up and burst into tears, not sad tears, but when I think back to this time last year I feel so overwhelmed I am not in that place anymore. Every morning is so beautiful here, and I'm finding it hard to come to terms that this is now life. Anyway, this is the lovely @charlottewrites make up by @lucyvictoriamua and clothing by @lagliterati 💕

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Oct 13, 2016 at 10:03am PDT

V pasci nášho vedomia

Today myself and @jess_megan_ sweated it out on a shoot in ridiculous heat! I wanted to do a quick edit before I fell asleep as the location was so beautiful 💕

A post shared by Amy Spanos 📷 (@amyspanos) on Aug 25, 2016 at 5:45pm PDT

Tvorba tejto fotografky je dôkazom toho, že všetko, čo nás v živote postretne, môžeme v sebe transformovať na to dobré. Keby Amy neprešla peklom na zemi, v živote by nezačala fotiť. Svojou tvorbou však môže ovplyvniť tých, ktorí hľadajú cestu von.

Pozri aj: Drogy, prostitúcia a všadeprítomná kriminalita. Mrazivé fotografie závislých ľudí z ulíc Philadelphie vás chytia za srdce

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